Friday thoughts

Random thoughts for the day:

• I gained 4 pounds in one day...I guess that's what chesseballs for breakfast, twix for lunch, chips & dip for dinner, and a few dr.pepper's will do to a girl. Now that I think of it, no wonder I felt sick last night...there is nothing like eating junk food all day to make you realize just how "old" you really are.
• I got back on facebook today. One week without. I had something like 50 notifications and a million other things. I missed it, it's good to be back.
• I think that forgetting is just as important as forgiving. Along with that I think I am the queen of closure. You can tell me to "drop it" and I do, but one year later I will ask or bring it up again. I guess you could call it a flaw of mine, but I think everyone needs closure. Even Jeremy when we were dating said he had something he wanted to tell me but didn't know how (it was a good, light-hearted kind of thing), after me asking about it for hours he said to just forget it. I STILL ask him what it was to this day. And I think I always will.

Now my main question:

Who is your person? That one person you go to with anything? All your problems, thoughts, dreams, ideas, emergencies, that person you can call at 4 in the morning? On Grey's Anatomy (the best show in the world) two of the single girl characters on there had to pick an emergency contact person, they picked each other and now are each others "person".

Maybe you are blessed enough to have two or even more. So tell me, who is your person?

Updates...

• This is a picture of Jeremy and I on our cruise last year, it's time for another one!
• I'm seeing if I can go without Facebook for a little bit. It's been hard honestly...I feel disconnected from the world! How crazy is that? I feel like relationship's I have been building up for months will crash and burn, I feel like I never know what's going on with my friends without status updates...and get this....it's only been 5 DAYS!! Can we say ADDICTION?


• I think suing a friend or ex-friend is one of the most hurtful and damaging things you can do to a person. I wouldn't sue a complete stranger, I can't imagine suing someone I was once close to.


• I have realized recently just how blessed I am to have the job that I have.


• I have a song stuck in my head and I have no idea what the words are. I am singing out loud random words, grunts, and syllables. I didn't realize how insane I sound until now.
  
• Yes, I sing out loud around the office all day. It's what I do.


• I'm planning a baby shower for my friend Amanda. I wish I could plan parties all day, everyday. I love it and I have so much fun. I can't wait to be doing this full-time someday. (I love that I'm planning it for Amanda too, she's awesome!!!)


• I have a craving to go on a cruise again later this year...I'm thinking we will have to take a certain newlywed couple with us....


• Starbucks makes me happy


• I go to an awesome church, Journey Church of Acworth! We meet Sunday mornings at 10:00 in Russom Elementary School in Acworth, GA. Visit us, you'll love it!!

Love?

• Webster's defines love as an unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another.
• Paul defines love in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7: love is patient love is kind (you know the rest).
• 1 John 4:8 - "But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love." This states that God IS love.

So...Can anyone really comprehend "unconditional" love?

Last night we had small group with the leaders in my church. Pastor Doug asked us to take a minute during worship and tell God you love him. So I began doing that. Here are the things I heard myself saying.

I love how you love me
I love how you changed my life

I love what you have done for me

I love, loving you

Then I realized something. I was telling God my love for him was (somewhat) conditional. Most of those can easily be translated to "God I love how you make me feel." When what I should have been saying simply; "God, I love you." That is what he wants to hear. He knows he changed your life, he knows he is good, he wants you to tell him that you love him.

After small group (which was amazing) I dropped Jeremy off at home and drove around for a while. After a while I pulled into a parking lot and started praying for healing on a part of my body (I have been praying for 6 years for healing on this particular thing). I laid my hand on this spot and began believing I was healed. I was working on my faith, and focusing on healing. Then on a completely different subject I said, out loud, "God, you love me exactly the same today as you did the day I was born as an innocent and pure child." And I just let that sink in for a minute. Not for one second did his love change. Not because of any sin, or wrong doing. Not even would it change after I ask for forgiveness for something. It doesn't change. Ever. That is what unconditional love is. I have heard this so many times, but something about last night just sunk in and shed an entire new light on the subject of God's love and what it means to me.

I felt like I was supposed to share this. I don't know if this helps anyone else, or if I just needed to write it down to help me remember.

I love God.

God loves me unconditionally.

Last night, I received my healing and I was healed.

wonderfully ironic

Jeremy and I are with T-Mobile, we are due for an upgrade. No biggie. So we go online, it says you have to call in, we call, they say you have to go to a local store, we go, they say you have to call. After about an hour of phone calls and 2 hours at the local t-mobile store NOTHING. Keep in mind not one person on the phone speaks english as a first language, or even speaks so you can understand them at all. We have tried to switch plans to a better one, cancel and go to verizon (for a "small" fee of $400), and just simply get our upgrade. Well after seriously about 4 hours of working on this yesterday I just said forget it, lets wait until our contract is up (in October mind you) and switch to verizon then....WELL....I go to make a call on my cell this morning...it's broke...yep...broke...the screen is cracked and looks like a rainbow. Can't see a thing.


Oh and on one of the coldest days of the year our heat at work decides to not work. (With my little space heater it's warmed up to a nice 61 degrees.)

I really am laughing, not complaining, just laughing at how...wonderfully ironic. :-)

random mind dump

• Church was great yesterday, worship was amazing, the message was great, and lunch after with friends was fun.
• Last week was the slowest week of my entire life. It was the first week since Katja left so that was hard. We started our fast, so being starving and at work was very difficult. I am also fasting TV right now so finding other ways to occupy my free time has been interesting.
• Saturday night was so much fun. Jeremy and I didn't have any plans, so it turns out that he planned a surprise date for me, and I planned a surprise date for him. Once we found out we double booked our plans we decided to do both dates. :-) It was such a nice night at home with him. It's days like that, that make me fall in love with him all over again. So if you are a couple here is my advice... you need to have at least a few of those days a month. (Oh and best of all both of our dates we almost 100% free, even better!)
• Twilight is one of the best books I have ever read. I'm not finished yet, but it's a really easy read. (I don't read much, but it's in the top 3 I would say!) lol
• I got the old school Mario brothers for Christmas for my ds. I am stuck on this one level, and I have been stuck for about 2 weeks and 50 lives. It is my goal for this week to actually accomplish the task of saving princess peach.
• My other goal this week is to put more focus on my bass guitar and practicing more frequently.
• The only thing I want to say about Katja leaving. Having your best friend so far away is very difficult at times. Call us best friends, call us sisters, call it whatever title you can think of, God put her in my life and me in hers because he knows this friendship has an everlasting impact on both of our lives. And for the record that impact would be served nicely in the state of Georgia or wherever I am. Thank you. :-)
• Not one person at T-Mobile "customer service" has any idea how to do their job, or speak clearly. An upgrade is NOT that difficult to understand.

Those are my thoughts for the day...See you next time!

ABS

thought for the day

Well first off Jeremy and I are fasting. For 21 days, our church as a church family is fasting as well. You can read about the fast here http://thedanielfast.org/ .

So my thought for the day. I was looking at facebook (shocker I know) and I browsed through all the status updates. And I got somewhat amused of the wide variety of my friends and what my friends were saying. Here's a few...I'm not going to list any names, and sorry ahead of time if I used yours and you didn't want me to...

First set:

• (bad w0rd) happens
• I want to cry
• I hate mornings
• confused and a (bad word)
• tired as (bad word)
• (bad word) new years resolutions

Second set:

• lovin' life
• thanks for the birthday wishes!
• loves meeting with these guys every week
• catch up on some reading
• Happy Three Kings day!
• has been offered 2 jobs

So...generally speaking, the first set is negative, second set is positive...Before I even looked at the updates I separated the people. First set are friends from around, second set are friends from church.

Surround yourself with positive, uplifting people and I think you will see them change your life without even realizing they are doing it.

ABS

best or worst...

There has been a question that has been rolling around in my head for a few weeks now. I was talking about it with a friend (cough...nikki...). Think about this...

Why is it that the people you are closest to and care the most about often are given the worst of you? And in the same aspect why do the people who love you the most often give you the worst of them? And then in turn acquaintances or friends are given your "Sunday best" so to speak.

I'm not saying I don't do this by any means, I'm just thinking about why this seems to always work out like this. Every "excuse" or reason I come up with, I can find an argument for it. (Kind of like "there are no excuses".) So I have come to the conclusion that there is no logical reasoning for this to take place.

SO...PLEASE give me your thoughts on this. Why do you think this happens? Or if you don't do this to anyone: what do you do to keep this from happening? Think about your spouse, best friend, parents, siblings, boyfriend/girlfriend...tell me what you think...

:-) ABS