God & Devil

I tend to over think things. (And "tend" is an understatement.) Something I do over think is how the devil and how God can work, and I know over thinking in this situation is a very good thing. If you think about it, think about your life, you can see the devil working around you when things are going bad. He can play with your mind, he can make things seem worse than they really are, and he can push you away from God by making you think that God is the one causing the problem. As you can read in John 10:10, it is VERY clear on God's intentions and the devil's intentions.

The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.

Here the "thief" is the devil, and "my" is God. If you are in pain, despair, depression, or anything along those lines, God is not testing you, God is not putting you through these things to teach you a lesson. It is the devil stealing your happiness, killing your health, and destroying your life. God's desire is for you to have a rich and satisfying life. A happy and fulfilling life with Him in it, with Him leading it.

Now keeping all of that in mind, what about when things are going good, plans are made, and then something happens that changes those plans, or things change to start going bad. The only way I can explain it is to give you and example...

As I stated in my last blog, I am re-studying healing. With the exception of my "condition" I haven't been sick since December, which is a VERY long time for me. Then yesterday I got sick, and my body thinks I'm sick again today. So I started thinking about this. I asked God this morning: "I'm studying healing, focusing on my health, and I get sick NOW, why?!" Then He said "Cause your on the right track." I think what that means is this, I'm scaring the devil with my prayers and my knowledge on healing. The devil is trying to break me down by making me sick. He is saying "Your God can heal, then why are you still sick, he can't heal." But I know he can, and I know he already did. I told Jeremy this morning that I was glad the devil was messing with me, cause I know I'm on the verge of discovering something amazing, my complete and total healing.

ABS

Re-Focusing

So, I need to start off with explaining a few things. I haven't really shared this information with many people, but why not....The doctors say I have this condition called "Pigmented Villonodular Synovitis". Here's some info on it: only surgery can completely remove it, it hurts a lot, it's never cancer, and once it's removed the recurrence rate is 48%. Synovial cells are supposed to be thin flat layers, but with this condition they become thick balls and lodge in joints and such, causing pain. Medical people call it a disease, I will always refuse to call it that, so it's a condition. I have had numerous surgeries for this, 3 shoulder, 1 knee, 2 feet, and I've been on pain meds for as long as I can remember. And I just had my 3rd shoulder surgery on June 19th, 2009. 2 weeks later I hurt my shoulder again, and my Doctor thinks I could have damaged it for a while. So I'm back in pain once again. This has been going on for more than 10 years, and it is some form of pain almost everyday...Anyway...So there are the physical & medical facts...BUT I don't believe or accept any of that.

I am a spirit-filled Christian and what I believe is that God's healing power contains a million times more healing than any surgery. And I believe that God's power is living and active in my body. SO why you ask do I have this condition? Why have I had 6+ surgeries? Why am I in pain everyday? Why? WELL...that's what I'm working on. :-) I began praying and thinking about this (again), and the conclusion that I came to was: Since God's healing power is already in my body, the only thing that is keeping my healing from me, is me. And I know that I believe, pray, and have unconditional faith that I will be healed. The only reason I could come up with was that I didn't have a knowledge of God's healing. I felt like I needed to study healing once again, and understand God's healing power. So I raided my parents house of Christian books. I found one by Doug Jones, "Understanding God's Healing Power." On the very first page, in the introduction Pastor Jones says: The thing that is keeping people from receiving God's healing power, is a lack of knowledge. Let me tell you, I knew I picked the right book. :-)

So I'll blog more throughout my studies. But this one scripture I read last night, while it has powerful meaning, I just sensed God's wonderful sense of humor with me....

Isaiah 10:27
And it shall come to pass in that day, that your burden shall be taken away from off your shoulder, and his yoke from off your neck, and the yoke shall be destroyed because of the anointing.
(haha - get it?) ;-)

ABS

40 Day Love Dare

Jeremy and I started "Love Dare" it's from the movie Fireproof. It's a marriage series, you read a section, do the love dare for 40 days. Take a look: http://thelovedarebook.com/ .
We are on our third dare today.
Day 1: don't say anything negative about your spouse.
Day 2: do one unexpected act of kindness for your spouse.
Day 3: buy your spouse something that says you were thinking about them.

Basically you read a short section about love, then read and complete the dare, then the next day write about the dare, how you both did on completing it and what you learned from it.

I really like this book. We don't have a lot of time, yes I know you make time for this stuff, but it's true! And this book is an easy read and takes less than 5 minutes a day. On our 40th day or 41st we are going to watch the Fireproof movie. I'm really excited about the dares and learning different ways to show my favorite person what he means to me. It's always fun to learn new ways to show my husband I love him, and learn how I can better love him. :-) Some of the dares I can tell will be easy, because we are not in a troubled marriage, but some would be hard for anyone. Just reading ahead...Day 5: Ask your spouse to tell you 3 things that you do that irritate them. I'm still very excited about the next 40 days...or 36, whatever!

By the way for today's dare...without even talking about it, or knowing we did it. We bought each other the same thing! Energy drinks : )

ABS

DAVID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One HUGE thing I couldn't say in my last blog...DAVID IS HERE!!!!!!!!!! He is from Germany, stayed with my family years ago, and he came as a surprise to my family and to Danielle for her wedding. (I keep the BEST secrets!) I'm sooooo excited to have him here!!!!

**update** (don't get excited, nothing interesting)

Well I haven't had much to talk about lately. No eye opening experiences, profound wisdom, or breath taking news. So here is a little run down with possible insight along the way...

• Dyed my hair, I pretty much don't like it at all, but im trying the "stay positive" approach (this of course after a all night freak out, 2am run to walmart and re-dying to fix)
• I'm excited about so many things coming up these next few weeks. I got about 2 hours sleep last night and am crazy busy, but I LOVE it. We have: bach party, rehearsal stuff, wedding OF TWO OF THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD, the lovely KATJA'S COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, one year anniversary at church, AND I'm evidently going to be playing bass at church in a few weeks (not gonna lie, kinda excited about that)
• After the wedding is all over CHRISSI is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is gonna stay for quite a while. (For those who don't know, Chrissi is my german "sister"! She stayed with my family a while back and I love her to death and haven't seen her in FOREVER (she lives in Germany)...I can't wait until she's here! And i'm mad jealous because right now she is on an around the world trip since like October or something crazy, and the trip doesn't end until May. LUCKY CRAZY GERMAN!
• I am an aunt once again...Brennan Grady Withrow was born Sunday the 15th...baby and mom (Amanda) are healthy & happy. He is adorable of course! (This brings my "aunt" total to 6, pretty good for an only child huh?!)
• I want a passport to magically appear (free and quick) so I can go on a cruise that we might actually have money for...just need that passport.
• That one year anniversary...JOURNEY CHURCH OF ACWORTH, 10:00 @ RUSSOM ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. I'll give you a cookie. (and no Jeremy you don't get a cookie unless it's your first time and I invited you...those are the rules.) :-) But seriously, I love my church and whoever is reading I think you would to.
• I can't believe I will be married 5 years in May. When I first got married I thought so many things about the 5 year mark. I though I would be all old and grown up, grumpy married couple...we are still not grown up. We pay bills and work, but the rest it's still like im a college kid dating my honey. :-)
• Quick thought...what is it about Germany? What's Germany got, I mean really? That country takes more and more of my friends/family I swear. But I guess "Ich Liebe Dich"...stupid country.

That's all I have for now.

ABS

you are what you eat...?

I was reading an article this morning. (I always try to read something educational each day) This one is about what is in the food we eat. What the "ingredients" mean in common terms.

• Carmine (aka red food coloring): commonly used in cranberry drinks, strawberry flavors, yogurt, anything red. Contains dried, ground bugs. The female Dactylopius coccus costa (the bug) feeds on red berries, the berries stay in their stomach and in their unhatched larvae. Basically squish it and get red food coloring that we eat.
• Carrageenan (Seaweed) - used to thicken ice cream, pudding, etc.
• Gelatin (Jell-o, Gummy stuff) get this, contains...several different animal parts, including ligaments, skin, tendons and bones.
• Bacteriophages (Sprayed on deli meats and cheese) sounds nasty but this one actually does a good thing, it kills listeria (not a clue what that is, but it will kill you if you eat it). The gross part is the bacteriophages are a mixture of viruses.
• Shellac (shiny coating on fruits, hard coating on jelly-beans) this is made from the excretions of Kerria lacca insects. FYI excretion means leaving the body...urine, feces, or sweat.

The kicker in this to me is vegetarian lobbyists are trying to get the FDA to put on these "vegetarian" food items, that they do in fact use animal products.

Gross...but I feel educated for the morning.

ABS

FIRST

Here is something to think about...

• Was your last previous kiss as exciting as your FIRST?
• Did saying "I love you" to your spouse give you the same rush as the FIRST time?
• Are you as excited today about Jesus as the FIRST day you met Him?
• Are you as much of a new creation today as you were the FIRST day you were saved?(ahh, yea that's a good one...)
• What have you done to grow spiritually from the FIRST day you were saved?

Take the first two questions for example. In life after we repeatedly do things they loose there "wow" factor if you will. It's human nature, it's reality. When I am listening to a sermon or reading my bible I try to comprehend everything with a new attitude, like I am learning it for the first time. I think one of the most dangerous things a Christian can do is listen to something and say "Oh I've heard this before" or "same sermon as before". You can hear something 50 times and, with the right attitude, get something different out of it each time, and maybe that 51st time you finally actually GET IT and can share it with someone who needs what you have just learned.

2 Corinthians 5:17: This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! 18 And all of this is a gift from God...

I have heard this scripture numerous times. It went through my head this morning and I realized something. NEW PERSON...when I have heard this taught it has been talking about when someone gets saved old things are gone, washed clean, they are a new person. Where in that scripture does it when when someone gets saved? I says if anyone is in Christ he is a NEW CREATURE. I'm in Christ, I'm just as new now as when I first got saved. AND this is yet ANOTHER gift from God.

I encourage you to relearn things you already think you know, make what is repetitive new and just as exciting as the first time you heard it. Pick your favorite or most talked about scripture and dig into it, pick it apart and learn something new. You can never, ever know everything there is to know about God, He is too amazing for that. Learn something new today.

My luck and cleaning

So I started cleaning my house yesterday. Not your typical cleaning...but "spring" cleaning. Cabinets, closets, or laundry room (that is used as storage for everything but laundry), coat closet (that has a spare tire in it and you can't see the coats), you know..."spring" cleaning. Also for about one year I have wanted to move our TV across the living room. Since we have satellite this means routing 2 cables around the outside of our house and drilling a new hole through our house (brick) and into the living room. So here is how all of that "spring" cleaning is going so far....

• Laundry Room - I moved Jeremy's tool box up on a shelf. (You know the red Coleman toolbox that every man has, but seldom uses?) Well I'm a little person, I had the tool box almost above my head and on the shelf when it slips in the metal corner falls on my neck. You know the soft middle part. So I gagged for about 5 minutes and prayed I wouldn't see blood. I didn't, so were good. (Of course I was home alone for this accident, shh don't tell)
• "Music" room closet - The junk closet, or at least one of them. I opened the door and of course tons of things started falling. I see a 1200 piece puzzle right on top of a pillow, it didn't fall! Good Luck right? Well, then I went to get the puzzle box and touched it, the top flew off and puzzle fell down. All 1200 pieces, one at a time, all the way to the bottom of the closet.
• As I tried to catch some pieces as they were falling and Jeremy starts calling me for help with the TV. He has routed the cable outside and drilled a hole in our wall. We just have to push the cable through the hole and we are good to go. It's a little hole. So after many failed attempts to get the cable through Jeremy suggests that I put my finger in the wall and feel around for the cable. I put my pinkie in the wall, moved it around, I found the cable. Good Luck right? I went to pull my pinkie out, it was stuck. Not like "OMG stuck, and jerk it out" but stuck, freaking out, jerking and pulling, twisting and shouting, until I got it out. It's just a tad bit red and swollen for the rest of the night.
• Guest Bedroom (or Katja's room as I call it) - There is a queen size bed in there I promise. You can't see it, but it's in there somewhere. My cat went in the "danger zone" room last night, I haven't heard from her since.
• Today...I woke up, our living room looks amazing, TV in it's new spot. The "music" room closet is spotless. Laundry room is perfect. Then I went to our Kitchen...you can't see the table or floor for all the boxes, trash, "attic" pile, "yard sale" pile, and 1200 puzzle pieces. Our bedroom has a walking path, that's all I can ask for at this point.

I look at my hands...7 out of 10 fingers are bleeding, at least they are all still attached...again, it's all I can ask for at this point.

ABS

3 Months

Well today is my one year anniversary at my work. So why does the title say "3 months" you ask? I'll tell you! Ever since I was about 13 I guess I have had this thing. Pick anything, such as: relationship, church, a job, college, etc. I have a thing that after 3 months I know for a fact if I am going to stick with something. With relationships, if there is any doubt, after the 3 month mark, I am done and gone. I get picked on a lot (cough - Jeremy) for dating around a lot. Here's the "stats" of those relationships: (guessing on the number)
10 guys - dated 3 months each
Jeremy - 6 years and counting
I know when something is going to work out, it's a instinct I have. So, 9 months ago I sat back and thought about this job and if I wanted to stick with it. I knew that I did, and here I am. Even if I don't think it will last forever, I know if it's worth sticking around to find out. I like having this "tic" about me. I can usually tell with other people if something will last or not too. I like it, maybe I'm weird, but I think it's unique! (In general I am only honest with myself on how long I think things will last. I can't bring myself to be that honest to other people. After all it's just an opinion when you think about it.)

BUT conclusion and music!

SO I tried to go without saying BUT for a while. Did anyone else try? Well, if you did I'm sure you found out the same thing I did. IT'S HARD, I will even say impossible! BUT (ha) I did try, and now I try my hardest to keep from saying it.

I love music. Everything to do with music, and most types of music. I love finding my favorites on you tube. Here are some that are a bit different that I feel like sharing..

• I secretly LOVE Yanni. You can't tell me it isn't "feel good" music.
  

• I think violin music is wonderful (check out Nuttin' but Stringz). I excites me, and you guessed it Riverdance is my favorite thing in the entire world! Here is "Thunder" by Nuttin' but Stringz, they are such talented guys:

• When I was growing up my mom and I would clean house every Saturday. While we were cleaning she would always put on Kenny G cd's. I always called them "sad" music. Now I love them and they make me want to clean and tidy something. So I guess I secretly love Kenny G as well.
  

• I never listen to Opera music, I have never gotten the point honestly. This man makes me want to listen all day long. I'm sure some of you have heard this before. The story is nice, if you just want to hear music, he starts singing at 40 seconds.
  

• This one is from the movie Prince of Egypt. I love it, no reason other than I'm a dork and the one line that says "When all you have is nothing, there's a lot to go around". It's fun and makes me want to dance crazy. The singing starts at 40 seconds.
  
  
  
  

Homeowner 101

I have lived in my house now for almost 5 years, and through those years I have learning and experienced a few things about the art of owning a home. Some of these might just pertain to me, some to everyone. Here are a few.

• A fireplace can flood. It's possible, and it happened last night.
• It takes a ladder, broom, washcloth, screwdriver, hammer and a band-aid to change a light bulb.
• Light bulbs only get changed once every year. If it goes out, use a candle.
• Coasters are not for drinks, they are for killing spiders.
• Never use a coaster at our house.
• Hand soap is NOT the same as dishwasher soap. You WILL flood your kitchen with water and soap suds to the ceiling AND end up wondering how in the world your cat got on top of the refrigerator.
• The ONLY way to handle a leaky roof on a rainy day is to laugh when it rains harder...during a drought!
• There is a sealant around a toilet, if it's not installed properly the toilet moves filling the room with a pleasant sewage smell.
• It takes more than 1 year to fix the sealant around a toilet, still waiting actually
• Every room will be rearranged once a month and painted once a year.
• Spackle is a best friend I hold dear to my heart.
• Multiple coats of paint will eventually make each room smaller
• Any stain can be fixed with a nice area rug or rearranging furniture. Who needs resolve?
• Installing hardwood floors yourself can take up to a year. Concrete slab as a floor doesn't have many perks.

So that's about it for my fun facts of having a home. I love my house, it's beautiful and perfect, and I love all the fun experiences I get from it!

ABS

I'm sorry, BUT...

Webster's defines "sorry" as: the feeling sorrow, regret, or penitence
Webster's defines "but" as: except for the fact

"I'm sorry, but"....everyone has said this. I have many quirks, and a few pet peeves, this is my new all time biggest pet peeve. If you say Sorry, and mean it, there should be no but's about it. (notice the cleaver pun...oh yea.) Saying but negates everything you previously stated, which would be the apology in this case. Saying but after an apology, in my opinion, is a cop out. You said sorry because you felt you had to but you don't think you were really wrong so you say but to continue proving your point. Take the definitions for example....

"I regret saying you were ugly, except for the fact that you really are ugly sometimes."

Leave out the but and your problem is solved (well calling someone ugly should be avoided at all times, but that's another issue). Don't say I'm sorry unless you can say it without the but. If that isn't possible, then hold off on the apology and wait until it is possible to leave out the but. I'm somewhat young, but this is a lesson I have learned in my life and I think everyone can at least benefit from trying this.

Now that I think about it, try leaving but out of your vocabulary. "I'm trying to be nice to her, BUT"......See if you can go without using the word "but" for one whole day, then try it for 30 and you will start a new habit. I'll try this and let you know how it goes.

Friday thoughts

Random thoughts for the day:

• I gained 4 pounds in one day...I guess that's what chesseballs for breakfast, twix for lunch, chips & dip for dinner, and a few dr.pepper's will do to a girl. Now that I think of it, no wonder I felt sick last night...there is nothing like eating junk food all day to make you realize just how "old" you really are.
• I got back on facebook today. One week without. I had something like 50 notifications and a million other things. I missed it, it's good to be back.
• I think that forgetting is just as important as forgiving. Along with that I think I am the queen of closure. You can tell me to "drop it" and I do, but one year later I will ask or bring it up again. I guess you could call it a flaw of mine, but I think everyone needs closure. Even Jeremy when we were dating said he had something he wanted to tell me but didn't know how (it was a good, light-hearted kind of thing), after me asking about it for hours he said to just forget it. I STILL ask him what it was to this day. And I think I always will.

Now my main question:

Who is your person? That one person you go to with anything? All your problems, thoughts, dreams, ideas, emergencies, that person you can call at 4 in the morning? On Grey's Anatomy (the best show in the world) two of the single girl characters on there had to pick an emergency contact person, they picked each other and now are each others "person".

Maybe you are blessed enough to have two or even more. So tell me, who is your person?

Updates...

• This is a picture of Jeremy and I on our cruise last year, it's time for another one!
• I'm seeing if I can go without Facebook for a little bit. It's been hard honestly...I feel disconnected from the world! How crazy is that? I feel like relationship's I have been building up for months will crash and burn, I feel like I never know what's going on with my friends without status updates...and get this....it's only been 5 DAYS!! Can we say ADDICTION?


• I think suing a friend or ex-friend is one of the most hurtful and damaging things you can do to a person. I wouldn't sue a complete stranger, I can't imagine suing someone I was once close to.


• I have realized recently just how blessed I am to have the job that I have.


• I have a song stuck in my head and I have no idea what the words are. I am singing out loud random words, grunts, and syllables. I didn't realize how insane I sound until now.
  
• Yes, I sing out loud around the office all day. It's what I do.


• I'm planning a baby shower for my friend Amanda. I wish I could plan parties all day, everyday. I love it and I have so much fun. I can't wait to be doing this full-time someday. (I love that I'm planning it for Amanda too, she's awesome!!!)


• I have a craving to go on a cruise again later this year...I'm thinking we will have to take a certain newlywed couple with us....


• Starbucks makes me happy


• I go to an awesome church, Journey Church of Acworth! We meet Sunday mornings at 10:00 in Russom Elementary School in Acworth, GA. Visit us, you'll love it!!

Love?

• Webster's defines love as an unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another.
• Paul defines love in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7: love is patient love is kind (you know the rest).
• 1 John 4:8 - "But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love." This states that God IS love.

So...Can anyone really comprehend "unconditional" love?

Last night we had small group with the leaders in my church. Pastor Doug asked us to take a minute during worship and tell God you love him. So I began doing that. Here are the things I heard myself saying.

I love how you love me
I love how you changed my life

I love what you have done for me

I love, loving you

Then I realized something. I was telling God my love for him was (somewhat) conditional. Most of those can easily be translated to "God I love how you make me feel." When what I should have been saying simply; "God, I love you." That is what he wants to hear. He knows he changed your life, he knows he is good, he wants you to tell him that you love him.

After small group (which was amazing) I dropped Jeremy off at home and drove around for a while. After a while I pulled into a parking lot and started praying for healing on a part of my body (I have been praying for 6 years for healing on this particular thing). I laid my hand on this spot and began believing I was healed. I was working on my faith, and focusing on healing. Then on a completely different subject I said, out loud, "God, you love me exactly the same today as you did the day I was born as an innocent and pure child." And I just let that sink in for a minute. Not for one second did his love change. Not because of any sin, or wrong doing. Not even would it change after I ask for forgiveness for something. It doesn't change. Ever. That is what unconditional love is. I have heard this so many times, but something about last night just sunk in and shed an entire new light on the subject of God's love and what it means to me.

I felt like I was supposed to share this. I don't know if this helps anyone else, or if I just needed to write it down to help me remember.

I love God.

God loves me unconditionally.

Last night, I received my healing and I was healed.

wonderfully ironic

Jeremy and I are with T-Mobile, we are due for an upgrade. No biggie. So we go online, it says you have to call in, we call, they say you have to go to a local store, we go, they say you have to call. After about an hour of phone calls and 2 hours at the local t-mobile store NOTHING. Keep in mind not one person on the phone speaks english as a first language, or even speaks so you can understand them at all. We have tried to switch plans to a better one, cancel and go to verizon (for a "small" fee of $400), and just simply get our upgrade. Well after seriously about 4 hours of working on this yesterday I just said forget it, lets wait until our contract is up (in October mind you) and switch to verizon then....WELL....I go to make a call on my cell this morning...it's broke...yep...broke...the screen is cracked and looks like a rainbow. Can't see a thing.


Oh and on one of the coldest days of the year our heat at work decides to not work. (With my little space heater it's warmed up to a nice 61 degrees.)

I really am laughing, not complaining, just laughing at how...wonderfully ironic. :-)

random mind dump

• Church was great yesterday, worship was amazing, the message was great, and lunch after with friends was fun.
• Last week was the slowest week of my entire life. It was the first week since Katja left so that was hard. We started our fast, so being starving and at work was very difficult. I am also fasting TV right now so finding other ways to occupy my free time has been interesting.
• Saturday night was so much fun. Jeremy and I didn't have any plans, so it turns out that he planned a surprise date for me, and I planned a surprise date for him. Once we found out we double booked our plans we decided to do both dates. :-) It was such a nice night at home with him. It's days like that, that make me fall in love with him all over again. So if you are a couple here is my advice... you need to have at least a few of those days a month. (Oh and best of all both of our dates we almost 100% free, even better!)
• Twilight is one of the best books I have ever read. I'm not finished yet, but it's a really easy read. (I don't read much, but it's in the top 3 I would say!) lol
• I got the old school Mario brothers for Christmas for my ds. I am stuck on this one level, and I have been stuck for about 2 weeks and 50 lives. It is my goal for this week to actually accomplish the task of saving princess peach.
• My other goal this week is to put more focus on my bass guitar and practicing more frequently.
• The only thing I want to say about Katja leaving. Having your best friend so far away is very difficult at times. Call us best friends, call us sisters, call it whatever title you can think of, God put her in my life and me in hers because he knows this friendship has an everlasting impact on both of our lives. And for the record that impact would be served nicely in the state of Georgia or wherever I am. Thank you. :-)
• Not one person at T-Mobile "customer service" has any idea how to do their job, or speak clearly. An upgrade is NOT that difficult to understand.

Those are my thoughts for the day...See you next time!

ABS

thought for the day

Well first off Jeremy and I are fasting. For 21 days, our church as a church family is fasting as well. You can read about the fast here http://thedanielfast.org/ .

So my thought for the day. I was looking at facebook (shocker I know) and I browsed through all the status updates. And I got somewhat amused of the wide variety of my friends and what my friends were saying. Here's a few...I'm not going to list any names, and sorry ahead of time if I used yours and you didn't want me to...

First set:

• (bad w0rd) happens
• I want to cry
• I hate mornings
• confused and a (bad word)
• tired as (bad word)
• (bad word) new years resolutions

Second set:

• lovin' life
• thanks for the birthday wishes!
• loves meeting with these guys every week
• catch up on some reading
• Happy Three Kings day!
• has been offered 2 jobs

So...generally speaking, the first set is negative, second set is positive...Before I even looked at the updates I separated the people. First set are friends from around, second set are friends from church.

Surround yourself with positive, uplifting people and I think you will see them change your life without even realizing they are doing it.

ABS

best or worst...

There has been a question that has been rolling around in my head for a few weeks now. I was talking about it with a friend (cough...nikki...). Think about this...

Why is it that the people you are closest to and care the most about often are given the worst of you? And in the same aspect why do the people who love you the most often give you the worst of them? And then in turn acquaintances or friends are given your "Sunday best" so to speak.

I'm not saying I don't do this by any means, I'm just thinking about why this seems to always work out like this. Every "excuse" or reason I come up with, I can find an argument for it. (Kind of like "there are no excuses".) So I have come to the conclusion that there is no logical reasoning for this to take place.

SO...PLEASE give me your thoughts on this. Why do you think this happens? Or if you don't do this to anyone: what do you do to keep this from happening? Think about your spouse, best friend, parents, siblings, boyfriend/girlfriend...tell me what you think...

:-) ABS