Re-Focusing

So, I need to start off with explaining a few things. I haven't really shared this information with many people, but why not....The doctors say I have this condition called "Pigmented Villonodular Synovitis". Here's some info on it: only surgery can completely remove it, it hurts a lot, it's never cancer, and once it's removed the recurrence rate is 48%. Synovial cells are supposed to be thin flat layers, but with this condition they become thick balls and lodge in joints and such, causing pain. Medical people call it a disease, I will always refuse to call it that, so it's a condition. I have had numerous surgeries for this, 3 shoulder, 1 knee, 2 feet, and I've been on pain meds for as long as I can remember. And I just had my 3rd shoulder surgery on June 19th, 2009. 2 weeks later I hurt my shoulder again, and my Doctor thinks I could have damaged it for a while. So I'm back in pain once again. This has been going on for more than 10 years, and it is some form of pain almost everyday...Anyway...So there are the physical & medical facts...BUT I don't believe or accept any of that.

I am a spirit-filled Christian and what I believe is that God's healing power contains a million times more healing than any surgery. And I believe that God's power is living and active in my body. SO why you ask do I have this condition? Why have I had 6+ surgeries? Why am I in pain everyday? Why? WELL...that's what I'm working on. :-) I began praying and thinking about this (again), and the conclusion that I came to was: Since God's healing power is already in my body, the only thing that is keeping my healing from me, is me. And I know that I believe, pray, and have unconditional faith that I will be healed. The only reason I could come up with was that I didn't have a knowledge of God's healing. I felt like I needed to study healing once again, and understand God's healing power. So I raided my parents house of Christian books. I found one by Doug Jones, "Understanding God's Healing Power." On the very first page, in the introduction Pastor Jones says: The thing that is keeping people from receiving God's healing power, is a lack of knowledge. Let me tell you, I knew I picked the right book. :-)

So I'll blog more throughout my studies. But this one scripture I read last night, while it has powerful meaning, I just sensed God's wonderful sense of humor with me....

Isaiah 10:27
And it shall come to pass in that day, that your burden shall be taken away from off your shoulder, and his yoke from off your neck, and the yoke shall be destroyed because of the anointing.
(haha - get it?) ;-)

ABS