God & Devil

I tend to over think things. (And "tend" is an understatement.) Something I do over think is how the devil and how God can work, and I know over thinking in this situation is a very good thing. If you think about it, think about your life, you can see the devil working around you when things are going bad. He can play with your mind, he can make things seem worse than they really are, and he can push you away from God by making you think that God is the one causing the problem. As you can read in John 10:10, it is VERY clear on God's intentions and the devil's intentions.

The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.

Here the "thief" is the devil, and "my" is God. If you are in pain, despair, depression, or anything along those lines, God is not testing you, God is not putting you through these things to teach you a lesson. It is the devil stealing your happiness, killing your health, and destroying your life. God's desire is for you to have a rich and satisfying life. A happy and fulfilling life with Him in it, with Him leading it.

Now keeping all of that in mind, what about when things are going good, plans are made, and then something happens that changes those plans, or things change to start going bad. The only way I can explain it is to give you and example...

As I stated in my last blog, I am re-studying healing. With the exception of my "condition" I haven't been sick since December, which is a VERY long time for me. Then yesterday I got sick, and my body thinks I'm sick again today. So I started thinking about this. I asked God this morning: "I'm studying healing, focusing on my health, and I get sick NOW, why?!" Then He said "Cause your on the right track." I think what that means is this, I'm scaring the devil with my prayers and my knowledge on healing. The devil is trying to break me down by making me sick. He is saying "Your God can heal, then why are you still sick, he can't heal." But I know he can, and I know he already did. I told Jeremy this morning that I was glad the devil was messing with me, cause I know I'm on the verge of discovering something amazing, my complete and total healing.

ABS

Re-Focusing

So, I need to start off with explaining a few things. I haven't really shared this information with many people, but why not....The doctors say I have this condition called "Pigmented Villonodular Synovitis". Here's some info on it: only surgery can completely remove it, it hurts a lot, it's never cancer, and once it's removed the recurrence rate is 48%. Synovial cells are supposed to be thin flat layers, but with this condition they become thick balls and lodge in joints and such, causing pain. Medical people call it a disease, I will always refuse to call it that, so it's a condition. I have had numerous surgeries for this, 3 shoulder, 1 knee, 2 feet, and I've been on pain meds for as long as I can remember. And I just had my 3rd shoulder surgery on June 19th, 2009. 2 weeks later I hurt my shoulder again, and my Doctor thinks I could have damaged it for a while. So I'm back in pain once again. This has been going on for more than 10 years, and it is some form of pain almost everyday...Anyway...So there are the physical & medical facts...BUT I don't believe or accept any of that.

I am a spirit-filled Christian and what I believe is that God's healing power contains a million times more healing than any surgery. And I believe that God's power is living and active in my body. SO why you ask do I have this condition? Why have I had 6+ surgeries? Why am I in pain everyday? Why? WELL...that's what I'm working on. :-) I began praying and thinking about this (again), and the conclusion that I came to was: Since God's healing power is already in my body, the only thing that is keeping my healing from me, is me. And I know that I believe, pray, and have unconditional faith that I will be healed. The only reason I could come up with was that I didn't have a knowledge of God's healing. I felt like I needed to study healing once again, and understand God's healing power. So I raided my parents house of Christian books. I found one by Doug Jones, "Understanding God's Healing Power." On the very first page, in the introduction Pastor Jones says: The thing that is keeping people from receiving God's healing power, is a lack of knowledge. Let me tell you, I knew I picked the right book. :-)

So I'll blog more throughout my studies. But this one scripture I read last night, while it has powerful meaning, I just sensed God's wonderful sense of humor with me....

Isaiah 10:27
And it shall come to pass in that day, that your burden shall be taken away from off your shoulder, and his yoke from off your neck, and the yoke shall be destroyed because of the anointing.
(haha - get it?) ;-)

ABS