Freedom

This morning's church service was great. One thing that Pastor Doug said was that most people go to church expecting to "experience" something, whatever it may be. So I stared thinking about this in service. He had some people call out what they wanted to get out of the service. And of course as my family and friends know I would never call anything out in public in front of all those people! :-) BUT I did have my reason in mind. I think, other than wanting to experience God, my reasons for going to church change from week to week, but lately I am going because I want to experience freedom. Freedom from everything. From debt, sickness, physical pain, emotional hurt, sadness, negative people, sin, and freedom from my little comfort zone. Some of those things I'm not about to talk about, but I know my freedom is coming, it's already here, I just have to receive it. Now I have a few issues that I think about all the time with one certain thing. Now I have a pretty awesome life, and grew up with awesome parents, so I'm sure this hurt is nothing to some people, but it's hurtful to me. I always try to walk in love, smile, say nice things. At what point does this stop. At any point is there a "throw in the towel", "God help you cause I've had enough". I know I've thrown in the towel for this one situation. I wish so much that I could just open up, speak my mind, and shake some sense into some people. I have a FANTASTIC friend that always speaks her mind, tells the truth, is honest, and she does it in a way that people still love her, weather what she is saying is good or bad. I wish I could do that, I'm just not that brave I guess or I don't know how to express those things. It's not my comfort zone. Well, I've decided that over time I can only take so many let downs, hurts, and just plain meanness. But I also know that I'm always available for the person in this situation if they ever need any help, or any information on God and how to get their life together. They just have to come to me. I think this is my best conclusion to walking in love in this case. It's the only way I can get freedom from it. I'm going to step back, let it go, move on, and just forget about it. I want to be free from this. I want to surround myself with positive, godly people. I want freedom from the negative.

SO Maybe 2 people in the world might know what I'm talking about here. But it's off my chest now that I talked (typed) it out!

ABS